The More I Loose, The More I Want To Loose

For the first time since beginning this program I was noticing how I felt...I mean really noticing. And I thought last night that I don't have to stop once I reach my goal of 90 pounds. I thought, "I can loose 100 pounds, maybe even 120 pounds!"

While that's a long ways away and several sizes (I'd have to buy more clothes) but it is possible. Of course when someone who's as big as me starts talking about weighing 200 pounds or less there are lots of people who try to ruin your mental strength. They say things like, 'you'd be too thin' or 'you'll never be able to loose that much weight.'

And while I know when you've known someone for a long time and I've always been heavier I think people tend to look toward those like me and use their insecurities to try and get into your head. I think people who are insecure about themselves look to me (or those around them with weight problems) and say to themselves, 'at least I don't have a weight problem,' or 'at least I'm not that big.'

So they try little by little to tear you down so you don't loose that weight. I don't think they do it knowingly. I think it's an instinct they use to keep their own insecurities justified. And I'm not saying that any of my regular readers do that...I'm just aware that I've heard some comments from people I've met where I live that have made some comments. But I would bet if I confronted them they wouldn't even remember saying those things.

I read an article several weeks ago in People about people that are now half the size they used to be. One lady talked about how she was always the care giver in her family and circle of friends and once she started focusing on her health and well being that some of her family and friends became very rude. She commented like they acted as if her getting better was being too self absorbed. Interesting.

ADDED SINCE ORGINAL POST: I hope this all made sense. As I just reread the post I wonder if I made have been on my soap box just a bit.